I know, I know

Everyone has been reminding me that I haven't posted on my blog since March. This is the reason why. In the beginning of March I thought I had an upper respiratory infection because I was sneezing, blowing my nose and had a cough that sounded like a seal and seemed to come up from my feet. It's still going on and it's more than 2 months. Lately I have been getting worried that maybe it's pneumonia or full blown cancer. I was more tired than usual and was perfectly happy to sit in my lazyboy after working out or playing golf. I was accomplishing nothing during that time. I think all the coughing, sneezing, and nose blowing was sapping all my energy. I tried to keep hydrating with Smart Water (it has electrolytes), but it didn't seem to help. Some friends told me it was allergies and others asked me if I had seen a doctor about that cough.

My PET Scan was due in April and I just had it on the 14th. In the October scan I had 3 lymph nodes that were lighting up on the PET Scan, but this time I have one. I honestly had a meltdown in the doctor's office and it was caused by a number of things the biggest one being THE COUGH! Second thing was I had an 11 o'clock appointment with the Oncologist for the results. Knowing I would be kept waiting for a long time, I decided to do my workout class and leave a half hour late for my appointment. While I was near their office I received a call asking me if I remembered I had an appointment. I told the lady I was on my way and would be there in a few minutes. It was 11:05 at that time and I arrived 10 minutes later. As soon as I arrived they put me in an examination room and kept me in there long enough so I had to use the rest room twice, so more than one hour. I was getting more upset by the minute. Why do I have to come in more than 2 hours before I see the doctor? It's getting to be like the airport.

At first I was upset that I had a suspicious lymph node. I feel that I've been doing all I can to get a better result. But basically I just ran out of good attitude. The doctor spent a great deal of time with me and I appreciate that.

By the time I got in my car and started home my head started to clear. Then I realized that this one lymph node is new and the three I had 6 months ago are gone. I must be doing something right. I'm still taking Tarceva and it's working. By the way all my organs are in good shape.

I'm so sorry that I had the meltdown. The Oncologist didn't deserve that. It was the cough that has been chipping away at my patience. I need to make amends with my doctor and also let him know that waiting in the examination room is no picnic. The room is cold and drab. Just leave me in the waiting room where there are people to watch and talk to. I could bring my Yoga mat and do something healthy.

My energy level hasn't returned because I'm still coughing and the only way that will stop my doctor tells me is to get in a boat and park it in the middle of the sea.

My apologies for not posting sooner. I hope you'll understand now that you know what was going on.